As we were leaving I took the time to look at a flower planter at the entrance to their wing. What I found calmed me and gave me some peace. I just had to have my camera and record that feeling after the troubling evening. It is very hard for me to express what it is like for me to go through this experience with my parents. My mother no longer knows my father, my brother, Evin or me and my father is failing fast. He talked tonight of never being able to drive again. I cannot make him eat and the food is very good at Abernethy Laurels. Evin cooked a wonderful meal for him two nights ago and he could not even eat it. We are taking him milk shakes that we spike with Ensure.
I called my brother, Ken, on the way home to tell what our experience had been tonight. We had one of our better conversations. We have been estranged for years. We ended out conversation with telling each other that we loved one another.
This morning I downloaded the shots of the flowers that I passed on my way back to the car last night and I found a peace in their beauty and simplicity. Death and dying is a part of life. None of us will get out of here alive. I see the stages of life often in the flower shots I take. Beautiful flowers I photographed a day or two ago in the radiant beautiful prime are now gone, often have fallen to the ground...
My mother, Frances Miller Conrad
My father, Marvin Bruton Conrad
Once again, flowers bring me peace.